latttitttude

ok let's say i really were to wake from my dream. Nightmare, sorry.

And i get to live my life out once more. Would i really make a difference this time round? Sure, i can do everything opposite, but that wouldn't be very marcus now, would it. No it won't. The decisions i'll make again are already inherent n me; choosing something different deliberately can't detract from my real character by much.

Then what happens when i get to 19yrs old? I won't know what to do and i'm gonna screw it all up again? If you think bout it, the very first opposite thing i'd do would change my life forever, so anything i did from that point onwards would be a big fat adventure filled with perils and booby traps all over again.

I'd say i hate my life but actually by saying that, it'd mean that i hate me (hmmm...). That would be too brattish as well. The mere suggestion would be too preposterous, anyway. Hate my life - like i could choose any other one to begin with! I really should give my life up to someone who'd appreciate it so much better. Anyone living in hunger in poverty in pain anguish suffering would gladly swap their lives for mine. That might probably be the best thing i'll ever do.

Applications through the tagboard, please.
Be warned though, it wouldn't make much of a difference. It'll be hell, still.