right now

, i'm fucking frustrated.

when will i stop coughing.
we're having a friendly with b*ker - tomorrow and that's the only thing stopping me from fucking taking an MC.

being aware of a situation might not necessarily mean that we know how to, or are willing to act to change it.
what happened to me?
i know i'm not stupid.
i took my first steps at just 7mths old.
one of the first words i learned to say was a 3 syllable word, umbrella.
i could play music by ear on the piano, namely phantom of the opera, when i was 4+.

i don't know about you, but i would say that that is somewhat an indicator that i didn't use to be such a dumb-ass.

what am i now?
a U-average student.
a fucking retainee who can't even keep up in lectures.
i know certain people still haven't accepted the fact that i got myself retained.
block tests are coming up.

my social life is shit.
and i can't throw a ball to save my life.

i'm still as clueless as ever. more so now than i was before.

i can't see myself with 4A's, let alone 2, for the A levels.

i still can't do integration.
i'm still going about the wrong way learning organic chem, 'cos i still have problems remembering everything.

everyone has taken off into the skies.
here i am, still trying not to get my wings clipped in the undergrowth.

it's 10.45 now. i'm gonna get drunk on cough mixture and i'll knock myself out with runny nose medicines.

over and out.

FUCK LA GO KITCHEN TAKE MEDICINE ALSO GOT PROBLEM IS IT. 

fucking scold scold scold for fuck? would 2min kill you?